People are quick to say
All you have to do is
Wake up and do what you love doing
I can see that some of you do that
and shit always end up getting fuck up
And it be by the ones you love and trust
When you are someone born in a fuck up deal from birth
How can you trust people when the ones around you
Showed you
You can't trust nobody
The spell of your own family keeping you down
They are only happy when you put money in their hand
or doing work for them
How can you trust a person you don't know
When you can't trust the ones you grow up with
The ones who give you live
The ones who saw you down
and they came to step on you or turn and act like they don't see you
See I was that person who trust everyone till they show me their true colors
And they show them over and over again
So I am who I am now
I don't trust no one
But I keep going because I love my kids
And I will keep showing them
real love
Because there is no need for them to live the way I did
Before they decide what they want to do for a living
I told them, because I see what they love to do
I push them to do better than me and anyone who they look up at
See I could have when to art school in New York
I remember a man came after I mail out the drawing
with the turtle on it
They want to see if you draw it the same
I did
He came and she told him to get out her yard
I remember in middle school I drew Eddie Murphy
for the school art show
lol I couldn't put in the show because
I had him holding women panties
My art teacher love it and my classmates
I can't trust people
But I trust and believe my kids
But just people I don't trust people
Deep now I know their are people understand & feel the same way I do
I understand I let people who I love and trust
Make me who I am
and I'm not mad about it
I made it out their season and truth and facts
I believe in myself and I trust myself
I always vision something good for the ones who did me dirty
I always saw better for them
I never took the time to see better for myself
Back than
Now It's fuck them I vision something better for myself
& my kids
I don't care how I look for you or you
I only care about how my kids look
when it come down to it
I will get dress and get right
I don't care what anyone call me no more
because I understand they see me
So people are fast to tell you just keep going
keep moving forward
See your vision of wisdom of awareness
The move fast into your vision and don't let
Your old reasons & season come into your new life vision
That you gave rise to
But understand they give you doors that you lock
So when you see one of them door try to open and unwrap itself
In someone new
That's why I call them ghost because they jump from one body to the next
Trying to pull you down
Keep your head to sky
& say have a bless day
There is no need to open old door within a new person
When you find the doors have are open minded people like yourself
People who talk like you
Think like you
When you look at them
You will smile and recognize trust
Love
Peace
And a people who made you feel home
Where everyone support without thinking about the why should they
As you do the same
But as for now the people I support
Don't even know I do
& as for now I know its best