This Is Church ( Just Because They Are Blood Don't Mean They Really Love You )

 Just Because They Are Blood Don't Mean They Really Love You 

Some people will find their self hurting the wrong people or person

All because they talk and listen to the blood

Ask yourself how many of your family members

can keep a job

can keep a relationship

can want their kids to be better than them 

what about 

who in your family is going to jail

who will lie on their own child to get out something they did

who talks about everyone and you

because you best believe if they smile in the face talking about so & so

they are talking about you with so and so smiling

you go out drinking and listening to someone who really doesn't 

want you happy

all because they are blood

but they can't hold water

they cant hold job

they cant hold one place to live

cant keep a vehicle

Don't fight for a relationship

Because that's time and seasons, with reasons for a life

they are always there with their hand out

I need you all to think about 

the person or people who don't ask for anything

who keep a job and go to the top of that job

where they have a say so

the one who trust you but because the way they talk and walk

Believe 

you don't trust them

and the sad part is 

you don't understand why

till its too late

then you are that 

should, could, would 

man or woman

see the people you trust 

trust in things

the people you don't trust 

trust in needs

you can't buy love, trust, friendship, joy, peace & faith

look at your blood family

ask yourself 

do you want better

because that is the only way you will 

break free from your bloodline curse

You must really at them

Where have they been 

Where are trying to go

What are their dreams

Do they want more

Are they happy how things are around them

Stop talking to the blood that really envies what you have 

Or

The person or people 

Who's around you 

And they just want to take their place

Because they want to feel what you give to the one's 

Who doesn't asks you for anything

But

Trust, respect, love, to be heard, 

Asks yourself who do you really listening too

So you don't end up on the wrong side

Because the only person or people 

Who can talk to why you take a shit 

Will be the ones to wile your ass 

When the day comes 

When you can't

That's love, joy, trust, peace, and understanding

So don't get fool and push the wrong one's away

Because you find yourself watching them faraway

Where you

Shoulda Coulda Woulda

Hit you 

And it's too late

The damage you did was done

Just because they are blood doesn't mean they wish you love

They just there for their self and wants

Put needs before wants

You will always be on the winning side

This was church 

Amen

So it be

Whatever you say after your meetings

Love always 9

Neoconda Oshun 

Text From My Brother doing Life

I told him we will just keep doing time together, and he wrote back.

I just copy and paste 

 U know sis

 that is what I'm talking about,

 I just feel like I'm in your way, and that shit don't sit right with me,

nor reels right, 

why do you have to live in a mobile home, 

when you could have so much more,and trust this

 I already know if you had the power and money, 

you would get me out of here,

cause you try to do that even when you don't have,

 I just don't think its fair to you, 

knowing in my mind and heart,

 no matter what I tell tip she ain't going no where cause she stubborn,

and she likes to keep her word

,but can you see,sis sometimes 

something we want so much in life,just ain't in reach, 

no matter how bad we want it,

 I know it sounds like I'm giving up, 

and who knows maybe I am, 

or is it Because I know your not going to be able to do it on your own, 

as far as getting a lawyer,

 I just want better for u,

I don't want u to keep doing time with me, 

rather I'm the only person u talk to or not, 

cause your the only person I really fall to too, 

(-------) has money on the phone

 but for dome reason

 I don't even wanna talk to her, 

so I haven't called,

and really its cause of you,

 the last time I talked to her, 

I asked her why she never showed u no appreciation, 

why she don't reach out to u, 

and help u like u did her,

why everybody seems so cold towards the one person 

who has helped everybody,

I don't understand that,

 I told her if it wasn't for you 

she wouldn't even be down here, 

so don't get it twisted and think,

 I think she came cause she wanted to,

 I know the lick, 

and I'm just tired of people treating you like the bad guy,

she said tip don't talk to me,

 I said I wonder why, 

how man times have your told her thank u for saving ya ass,

she couldn't answered,

 so I haven't caller since,

but I gotta charge this tablet 

I'll write when I get it back,and that money is still gone be there in case you need it promise don't need it,

 love you so much write u later. 

I love you miss u and we gone be alright one way or thee other,

but let me know its there if u want it I'll be okay as long as u okay...

Part 2

Sis I told you I would finish up writing u, 

so here I am, 

I miss you so much,

and even tho I would give anything to be free,

I would give even more to see you happy, 

and complete,cause you deserve that,

 I want that for all my sisters, 

even tho the other two don't want happiness for me, 

it doesn't change my heart,

 nor what I want for you and them,

so tip like I said I'm holding that money, 

I don't care how bad I want or need something, 

its yours all you gotta do is say bruh send that,

plus tip I don't mind helping you, 

my last is yours, 

all you have invested in me,

its time I do something for you,

I keep telling you I don't care no more if I have or not, 

plus its not like I haven't been broke before,

I just wanna help,

I hate to hear you saying you don't have shit, 

that shit hurts me, 

cause I should be out there helping u 

when times get to rough,

so again I'm here if you need me 

its not going anywhere,

oh yeah still haven't heard from (----),

 but it doesn't matter no more to me,

I'm done worrying about what's gone happen with me, 

and what's not, 

its whatever its gone be,

and I guess most people will look at 

that as me giving up,

 but its not, no one knows what I go thru everyday waking up somewhere

 u don't wanna be for twenty one years, 

it does something, 

I'll never get used to this or call this my home

,I'm just tired of fighting,

 I'm tired of hoping, and having faith in something

 I just can't see,

 I'm I wrong for that, 

then on top of that

 I'm fine depending on people,

 its hard to take people at their word now a days

 so I don't,

 noones but yours cause you don't lie to me, 

never have so I respect all you say

 and do, 

well I was just hitting you back to finish 

where I left off, 

I love you, and I miss you holla back when you can love always lil bruh for life l....

.Jpay

If anyone want to help me write our brother

Tyler Gore

U12435

110 Melaleuca Drive
Crawfordville, Florida 32327-4963

Being Spiritual with Coronavirus

Being Spiritual with Coronavirus 

Trust in believe you will be tested

You will not be thinking right

You will be overthinking 

And if you don't get your rest 

Evil people will come in with lies 

All because they want what you to have

Because they don't want you to leave and win

You will not be yourself 

Because your mind can't not rest

Understand your 3rd is the part where only some of can 

Open

Within your dreams

That feeling of you just know

Your blood pressure will be up because of coronavirus

And them evil hateful people or person

Will be coming

Because they talking with their green eyes 

And they know you are not yourself

They came for me 

I was tried

I have no understanding

All I knew it was kill or be killed

I know they are coming again 

I'll be smiling this time 

Because I know where they will be going

But I also understand it had to be done 

Because what is done in the dark had to come to light

See they want something I never ask for

Because I will always work for mines

2nd I understand what was taking must come back better

I speak the truth and truth will always show itself 

It's the creator law

I have no need to hurt anyone

Unless they come for me

And I will not be like a sheep and let a wolf eat me

I am powerful and I will tell the wolf or wolves 

What to eat or eat each other

In my time that I'm was down 

They came for me 

I knew they were coming 

But they didn't know that each of them was enemies

So eyes had to be open 

Because the demon know I speak the truth

The demon knows I will not lies

Now the demon must check his wolves

But his wolves bite back 

And 

I, Neoconda Oshun will leave in peace 

With a smile 

Why they tear each other in pieces

Unless the demon do right by me 

9x9x9 

Is always 9

I will keep loving myself 

Because I will always show love to others

Who shows love to me 

But I will never be a walking stone 

Because I hit back 

Forever, a Goddess 

Bless water came down my face

So all can see the demon truth face